This is my personal vision of the divine and feminine void, which creates the Universe by dividing "for the chance of union"*.  I saw it upon my heart while meditating and waiting in vain, far from home, for a loved friend lost.  I didn't understand the LILY reference at the time, but I discovered that by gematria it equals "universal", "union", 2 × "to me" (see quotes below), and also 4 × "black liquid" (note four dark tears).

I have since become aware of the very relevant connections of my circumstances and these symbols to those of the Tears of Mary (which name means bitter water), falling at the foot of the cross and turning to a Lily of the Valley; also the Rose of Sharon, the Rosy Cross, and the Blood Grail.  These symbols, including the cross in the circle implied by the four-petaled lily, approach a secret of the Ordo Draconis (the "Order of the Dragon") a.k.a. "Rex Deus" (Divine King), and the Grail Kings.

Also, more generally, the central eye and the peripheral lily may be equated with some relevance to Hadit and Nuit, respectively.  The gematria of "LILY" (80) equals that of "Nuith" (an alternate spelling of Nuit, sometimes employed by Crowley, which equals 80 when spelt as pronounced:  nun-vau-yod-teth-he, as opposed to nun-vau-yod-tau).  Nuit exclaims "To me!  To me!" thrice in the first chapter of the Book of the Law (emphases added):

This shall regenerate the world...my heart....  Ecstasy be thine and joy of earth:  ever To me!  To me!  (Cap. I, v. 53)

At all my meetings with you shall the priestess say--and her eyes shall burn with desire as she stands bare and rejoicing in my secret temple--To me! To me! calling forth the flame of the hearts of all in her love-chant.  (Cap. I, v. 62)

To me! To me!  (Cap. I, v. 65)

Liber AL vel Legis subfigura CCXX ("The Book of the Law")

She also states, right after the first occurence of "To me! To me!"::

Change not as much as the style of a letter; for behold! thou, o prophet, shalt not behold all these mysteries hidden therein.

Liber AL vel Legis subfigura CCXX ("The Book of the Law"), Cap. I, v. 54

Crowley comments that this verse was...

...perhaps answering some unspoken comment of the scribe on the capital Ts in "To me".

"This injunction was most necessary, for had I been left to myself, I should have wanted to edit the Book ruthlessly.... ...[A]gain and again have the "mistakes" proved themselves to be devices for transmitting a Wisdom beyond the scope of ordinary language.

ALEISTER CROWLEY
The Law Is for All

I was honored to have this drawing published in the Scarlet Letter (Vol VIII, No. 1), a publication of Scarlet Woman Lodge of the Ordo Templi Orientis.

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